《This Bloody Tarkhovsky Film》歌词

[00:00:04] we had this lecturer once who said that memory was the absolute key to identity. to who you are.

[00:00:09] that there is no innate, natural, biological you who exists constantly. but instead, you wake up every morning and you have to remember who you are.

[00:00:17] and like, you go through this process where you open your eyes and gradually you remember stuff about yourself.

[00:00:21] not emotions or feelings but actions. and as you remember the situations you've been in and how you reacted to those situations.

[00:00:28] then they all add up to how you behave through the course of the day. so there is no defined you as such.

[00:00:33] just what you did yesterday. and what you did ages ago as well. all these choices are what make you do or what you do.

[00:00:38] there is no self as such. just memories of who you've been. and then he showed us this bloody tarkhovsky film.

[00:01:07] but what i was thinking was that you could change yourself. if that was true，you could change yourself.

[00:01:12] i mean, if you misremembered something, just one thing, on purpose, you'd be a different person.

[00:01:17] if you convinced yourself that you never said that or you never punched him, then it would be gone and you'd be different.

[00:01:22] and maybe, you'd be better. so years later i'm at work and i get this e-mail about some mundane shite.

[00:01:29] i don't know, to do with photocopiers or something. and the person it was from had used an account other than their own.

[00:01:34] so the from at the bottom was different to the from at the top.

[00:01:37] and more than that, even though they'd actually typed my address with my name on it,they got my name wrong.

[00:01:42] so reading this crap, from julie or steven and to peter or philip i couldn't help but think what the f**k am i doing here?