《Now I Feel Ya (Explicit)》歌词

[00:07:32] ...It's a new day... ya know what I'm sayin'?

[00:07:32] A new day brings a new problem to a brother

[00:07:32] and all I gots ta say is thank god for my mother

[00:07:32] cause without my mommy dear my life would've been joke

[00:07:32] either locked up playin' dead and still slangin' d**e but nope

[00:07:32] The lord he had a plan for me

[00:07:32] and with his help my mother made a man of me

[00:07:32] didn't blindfold me to the world we was livin' in

[00:07:32] taught me how to save my little dividends

[00:07:32] so when I graduated I'd have a little school money

[00:07:32] but in the sixth grade I wanted to be the school dummy

[00:07:32] and flunked outta school with the flag pole

[00:07:32] and left my mother dear at home with a sad soul

[00:07:32] because my mother worked the fingers to the bone

[00:07:32] cause we was alone, and me I bought a death home

[00:07:32] My real pops he broke out with the style

[00:07:32] so I respect my stepdad, for raisin' another ni**a's child

[00:07:32] So now we livin' comftable

[00:07:32] taught me the game and how to be responsible

[00:07:32] But back then I couldn't see it

[00:07:32] I wanted to be a grown man at fourteen so the kid's leavin'

[00:07:32] and ended up in a big fight

[00:07:32] and told me not to come home until I got my sh*t right

[00:07:32] So now I'm livin' in my grandma's home

[00:07:32] my grandma's strong, she's got nine kids of her own

[00:07:32] and keepin' me ain't no big deal

[00:07:32] but now that I'm much older I see just how the sh*t feels

[00:07:32] being kind-hearted, not wantin' to tell me no

[00:07:32] even though my grandfather just had a stroke

[00:07:32] and now the money's low

[00:07:32] and pretty soon a brother's gonna have ta go

[00:07:32] or either try to find a job so I can help out

[00:07:32] I'm in the ghetto, I gots ta get myself out

[00:07:32] and when I get out I gotta try to pave the way

[00:07:32] so my family can have a better place to stay

[00:07:32] I'm losin' all hope, a brother's fallin' short

[00:07:32] I can't cope, so now I'm slangin' d**e

[00:07:32] and now my granny knows I'm doin' wrong

[00:07:32] she just prayin' for me heavily

[00:07:32] take care of her grandson

[00:07:32] and the lord must of heard her prayer

[00:07:32] cause he made me get a grip

[00:07:32] and got me on up outta there

[00:07:32] I heard my mother say them streets is gonna kill ya

[00:07:32] you couldn't have told me nothin' back then

[00:07:32] but now I feel ya...

[00:07:32] I'm eighteen, and now I'm havin' big fun

[00:07:32] my baby's mother just had my first son

[00:07:32] May eleven, I never will forget the day

[00:07:32] A star's born, let's name him little Scarface

[00:07:32] My first born and yo I'm a proud father

[00:07:32] I gotta son, I gots ta be my son's father

[00:07:32] and sellin d**e ain't the way that I can get ahead

[00:07:32] but what the hell, I gots ta keep my baby fed

[00:07:32] I buy him milk, and pampers tryin ta do my part

[00:07:32] and he's my son, I gots ta try to make him hard

[00:07:32] I buy him clothes, and jewellry not the Tonka toys

[00:07:32] because the Tonka toys will only punk my boy

[00:07:32] and I don't want my son to look at life

[00:07:32] through a replica of reality tryin' to make it life-like

[00:07:32] but yet and still I let my son be a kid

[00:07:32] just give him up the real, exactly like my momma did

[00:07:32] So when he gets to be a man he'll appreciate

[00:07:32] the game I gave him way back when he used to roller skate

[00:07:32] and now my son is four years old

[00:07:32] I really gots ta give the real and try to play the father's role

[00:07:32] because these years he'll remember most

[00:07:32] so it's all about little Marcus and me becomin' close

[00:07:32] but I got a buncha obstacles

[00:07:32] if it ain't my line of work it's the girlies on my popsicle

[00:07:32] Now everybody's got my baby

[00:07:32] wantin' to have their hands in my pocket tryin to drive me crazy

[00:07:32] "It's your daughter, don't she look like you?"

[00:07:32] I just can't tell, why don't you take it to ma momma do

[00:07:32] because my mother knows the real deal

[00:07:32] all these hoochies poppin' coochie tryin' to get a free meal

[00:07:32] So now we in and outta cope

[00:07:32] tryin' to get mo money, braggin' om the child support

[00:07:32] Tellin' her friends that she's breakin' me

[00:07:32] now eveybody knows, that she was just fakin' G

[00:07:32] Come to find out, the girl never had me

[00:07:32] she's the baby's mother but me I ain't the baby's daddy

[00:07:32] and biological tests can prove

[00:07:32] you gotta get up off of me and go after the other dude

[00:07:32] but now I finally got a real daughter

[00:07:32] no need for the testin'

[00:07:32] I know that I'm the baby's father

[00:07:32] I heard my daddy say them hoes will try ta kill ya

[00:07:32] you couldn't have told me nothin' back then

[00:07:32] but now I feel ya...

[00:07:32] I feel ya...

[00:07:32] Now I'm twenty-two and finally got a grip on life

[00:07:32] It's nineteen ninety-three, I put away my pocket knife

[00:07:32] and got a bigger stick to fight with

[00:07:32] I'm young and black so my choice ain't a nightstick

[00:07:32] because we livin' in a concentration set

[00:07:32] and everyday, we face to face with death

[00:07:32] I seen my homies go and come

[00:07:32] and judgement day is just somethin we can't run from

[00:07:32] so I know my number's comin' up

[00:07:32] so I gotta protect myself from suckers who be runnin' up

[00:07:32] and even though I hate killin' off my own kind

[00:07:32] I gotta be a man and as a man I'm a defend mine

[00:07:32] My brother corners tryin to keep the neighbourhood at peace

[00:07:32] don't fight each other, we gots ta stand and fight the beast

[00:07:32] so united we stand but we gonna fall quick

[00:07:32] because we always tryin to take another brother's sh*t

[00:07:32] and the cops is in the same vote

[00:07:32] just because we comin' up quick they think we slang d**e

[00:07:32] They shootin' ta kill, they gas ain't sparkin' goods

[00:07:32] they shot my long time partner Rudy in cold blood

[00:07:32] and now the story's all twisted up

[00:07:32] and if they gave the cop the chair

[00:07:32] I really wouldn't give a f**k

[00:07:32] because she left my partner's family with memories

[00:07:32] and after hearin' this I know you don't remember me

[00:07:32] but yet in still I find it hard for me to stay in touch

[00:07:32] I see his parents and then I started breakin' up

[00:07:32] because I know what you did was wrong

[00:07:32] but you won't realize until you dead and gone

[00:07:32] It ain't no justifiable homicide, you never gave a warning

[00:07:32] you straight up shot him from behind

[00:07:32] but all the cryin' in the world ain't gonna bring him back

[00:07:32] you give a gat to a black he don't know how to act

[00:07:32] but you gotta tell your story to the judge

[00:07:32] not the imitation judge, the judge that everybody loves

[00:07:32] and if the man upstairs grants you forgiveness

[00:07:32] then in reality you took care of your business

[00:07:32] but regardless I know you wanna kill me

[00:07:32] but I ain't goin' out like dat

[00:07:32] Ya feel me?

[00:07:32] ...yeah