《July(Part One)》歌词

[00:00:01] I sat down with her

[00:00:02] And she told me her story

[00:00:02] And I told her I loved her

[00:00:03] And I just wanted to support her through her recovery

[00:00:07] And through conversations, I listened, and I feel like this is the best way to interpret what she told me

[00:00:13] The devil found a clever way to infiltrate and bring his manipulation;

[00:00:17] A slender blonde in a cocktail dress struggling through the intoxication

[00:00:21] Brought on by the gifting of drinks until she was ready to payback in the bedroom

[00:00:26] In search to appease the demons in her head on a sterile surface in the bathroom

[00:00:30] Looking into a half cracked, half filthy mirror hoping she doesn’t reflect

[00:00:34] That half cracked, half filthy receding stain of a smile her mother made when she left

[00:00:39] Because the promises she made to herself seem to be the hardest ones to keep

[00:00:43] And knowing she survived the last storm was no longer all she needed to be able to fall asleep

[00:00:48] Vacant wine glasses and late night crashes symbolic of her vessel with no presentation at the pallet

[00:00:54] But a spirit starving for remembrance some sort of legacy other than her occupation

[00:00:58] Because her normal skin looked like silk but had been masked by vengeance

[00:01:02] Baggage under her eyes deep within her overcompensating lies and all she saw

[00:01:06] When she gazed into the ending skies was regret from that manipulation

[00:01:10] This life of sleeping through the static of practice for the everlasting rush she hoped for

[00:01:15] She was somewhat ecstatic, but not for the first time

[00:01:18] Because she was reminiscent of those times that she would have those late night drives;

[00:01:23] Those moments when she would look back and say “How did I get here?”

[00:01:26] Those moments when she would look at old childhood photos and say “How did that child grow up to be like this?”

[00:01:31] When did I dismiss the morals that I subscribed to? I don’t know what to do

[00:01:36] And she looks at photos of her beautiful mother in her youth and is envious of that smile she had when she was twenty-two

[00:01:42] And she wishes she could say the same for herself but she’s lived in a self-perpetuated hell

[00:01:47] Because she took the literal stains and the literal scars and turned them into the emotional drain and then she fell apart

[00:01:53] And I’ve never really been one for taking second chances on times that I’ve been broken

[00:01:58] But sometimes forgiveness needs to be put in place for someone to actually grow from these negative emotions

[00:02:03] And all that constructive use of the pain that’s thrown at you is the only way to find refuge

[00:02:07] So I’m gonna tell you this darling, every time you tell yourself that you’re not worth it

[00:02:14] Every time you tell yourself you’re worthless

[00:02:16] You're being lied to

[00:02:19] And in that case

[00:02:20] The liar is you